忽然之间，好像有所领悟。 I misunderstood it as love, i just care too much so i thought i love you. 所以，好像不要管会比较开心吧。 但是，看见你孤立无援的样子，就忍不住关心。 但往往得到的，却是相反的。 你不会明白，我试着安慰你时。 我想得到的，只是你对我好一点。 而，你往往就会选择沉默。 也许就是这样，我们无法再走下去。 今天，昨天，没有改变。 所以，选择放弃好像是唯一的出路， 我到此刻还在犹豫，是否该这样做， 在最重要的时刻，你总是退缩。 很想留下， 但，你往往就会叫我离开。 挽留我，或是放我走？ 如果连这小小的改变都不能做到， 那么，我只好朝着出口前进。 别以为时间能够治疗一切， 我最不喜欢看到的就是明明伤害了， 数月后见面却好像什么事都没发生过。 但往往就是这样， 包容了一切，离开后却觉得很多是都很恼人。 你没有发现，你从来没有问过你自己，你那遥不可及的梦想， 实现的时候，值得吗？你失去的可以被弥补吗？ 也许我在你眼里很没用，但我过得很开心， 你没有出现的时候真的很开心。 当然，每一个人都有发梦的权利， 我应该支持你的，但看到你那么的辛苦， 试过叫你放弃，但往往却被你用冷言冷语的唾骂。 我的梦想没有你的那么伟大， 但，我很满足。 你很固执，有些人好心相劝， 你却天真地把那些话当时推动力， 只是想告诉你，再好的车子， 也有到不了的地方，所以，再也无法前进时，就是时候倒退， 回到那时你最开心的时光，做你最想做的事。 算了，我不会再祝福你，你自己应该掌握自己的命运。

Eventually i dont think i know anything about you, just i define you as what i seen. its just like what are you to me in my heart. Eventually you used to be my everything,but now you're just someone i used to know.Thats the definition of Strangers. Eventually i wont waste a single time on you anymore, cause i know it doesnt worth it. Yet,there's someone else who make me worry alot, recently. When she saw this, i think she know should be her . I know you wont do anything stupid, but i just pure worry la dei. IDK WHY ALSO KAY! I know you are strong, tough, smile no matter what are the circumstances while facing the crowd. Yet, i feel something,Like what i used to feel before. 简单得来说，我又一种似曾相识，一种同病相怜的感觉。 but i know you will get through this,as that girl i know you will :)) So eventually i have no worries anymore.maybe? hahaha yeah chilling la sis :) But these people who i really cant let go off, is the one i care the most, cause they never left me alone :)) My brothers and Sisters are facing much of problems recently and dear wei sik, no matter you know you will always have me supporting you, cause that bitch is 100 times worst then what im facing now, but you guys are once in love with each other:) depends on you bro, whether to do something or not :)but i'll always support you. cant believe that getting over you is so easy, but yeah i have people more important to care about. basically i already forget you :) so yeah,possible, fuck off my sight :)

很累很累，也非常疲惫。 无论是身或者是心。 好久好久每有去旅行了。 有很多计划，很多希望。但，往往都成为奢望。 想了很多很多，应该也需要找个地方安静一下。 许多岛屿，许多高山都成了我的目的地。 应该会一个去吧。多人时总是很难控制，很难规划，那么旅行的意义也就没了。 不需要很多人，几个真心朋友的陪伴就足够了。 希望能够实现吧：）

Hey you, Yes you. You know who you are , if you are seeing this , i would like to tell you something. Its been a week, although i still wanna hold you in the every morning, i have a solid reason to ask me to do so :)) I learn how to let things go,no matter how hard it gonna be, i probably will just fake a smile and let it pass through. Now i know why parents would ask us to make a great habit :)) cause i used to think that you are my world and make it a habit, so i think i cant live without you , luckily i'm wrong. I really moved on, I though this would take me ages but yeah, a week, thats why i'm fantastic :) First i like to say thank you to HweeYing Ng, Yong Qing Yi , the Chan Jern Brother's,Joe Ern, Chan Wei Sik and The whole Group 10 Of CAT course.They really really help me alot, thank you. <3 Letting you go make me realise i lose alot, Me and Wei Sik was running around whole day just to make ourself happy, and yeah we even went to Klang to find our long lost Brother-Ignatius Lee Ming Koon :))) End Up they are still the one who stand with me :) The friend i never regret to meet, although they way i meet them was very random :) He change alot, Ming Koon change alot, He's more mature, more considerate , more responsible :) Summarize it he's awesome possum jerry blossom :)))) Thank you Brother Koon, will definitely go find you more often :))) I will start to pick up the pace, will start to do alot of things that i really like :) This is a Part of me,that you never gonna ever take away from me -Katy Perry(Part Of Me) I love to be naive, you told me you have someone else and doesnt wanna tell me who is that, Now, i dont really give a damn :))) But if i found out who is that, i will like beat him up somehow, cause this is me naive, unmature with my actions :) i do think alot , im maybe those kind of guys that think about something super mature but totally abstract with my actions :)Maybe thats why you leave me. :) Loving someone is to accept every part of that person, Sadly and Proudly i can say, you are self centered,selfish as always, but i accept who you are :)) But you dont, instead you ask me to change Changing is good most of the times,but if you want me to change the most comfortable and suitable side of mine, i would just say sorry, if this is last sunday, maybe i will do everything to hold you on even i'll change every part of me , but yeah, i didnt , and im proud of it. 你不喜欢我的头发，我立刻就去剪了，你从来没有想过，就算那个发型再不适合我，只要我喜欢就好了。 我默默地承受，因为我爱你，无头无脑的爱着你。 庆幸的是，我不必再忍耐。 我是真的很爱很爱你，但是，也成了一段美好的过去。 放开了，想通了，就好。 Delete you on facebook,unfollow you on twitter,delete my pictures with you, delete my chat with you.all these action seems to be mature, but people who really know whats happening will know that thats the way i'm leaving you, without a trace, just like burn down the bridge after passing it, there's no turning back, i know i'm soft hearted last time, but now i'm a totally different guy. Please dont think that girls are the who who can change real fast, sometimes guys do to , example? ME ! Girls will never know what guys are thinking, so to guys never know what are girls thinking. I miss you every morning when i wake up, wanted to whatsapp you so badly, but deep down i know, thats a trap , so i didnt do it,i dont want to return to that cycle Did you know that when you say we're better when we are friends. i want to tell you thats totally a bullshit, what you give me when we are friends? Ignore,Ignore and Ignore. i know you will say i ignore you. But yeah, do you think i will ever ignore you if you talk to me? all you do is just sit down and ignore , maybe thats why you say you cant make it, i'm not the guy. I hate it when you say you deserve better, thats another bullshit. i sense nothing but sarcasm in that. but yeah, its a part of my memory, you can always whatapps me when you see this, maybe you see this and you dont want to? or maybe you doesnt see this. not up to me, up to the fate. Dont worry, ive totally let it go, totally put down everything . Until now you still didnt give me a solid reason why , maybe you'll never give. But deep down i know its time to move on, and i already did that :)) So proud of myself:)))) Whether you see this anot. I just wanna say that, good luck to you and the him.